Friendships and life

friendship

noun

1.      the emotions or conduct of friends; the state of being friends.

"old ties of love and friendship

I've had my fair share of fallouts with friends, including a very personal and hurtful one last year, in which the relationship with my ex-best friend has completely disappeared to a point in which the only communication we probably have is a couple of smile and hellos in the corridor and at most maybe a sentence or two. Since the time of the fallout I've begun to question my every move of when I say things to others and how I phrase sentences it as even my old "best friend" used to misunderstand me thinking that I was being sly or strange. For a while, during the previous year I thought that the whole friendship group that I used to be apart of wasn't going very well however I felt unable to speak up about it and then with the issues that we had would have during the time we were friends would have been discarded or blown over without me having said anything, but deep down it still kind of hurt.

Sometimes I have moments when I'll think about what had happened and feel genuinely sad about it and I'd think about what would be different about my everyday life, as you friendship groups play a massive part of it. However, in a way I'm happy that our friendships ended otherwise I wouldn't have got to  know the my amazing friends and best friends that I have today. Without these wonderful people I wouldn't feel as happy as I do today or as free because f something is wrong I feel as if I can speak up about is as they hopefully feel the same way about that too.

If you are feeling uncomfortable in a friendship or friendship group that you are apart of, don't feel as if you can't do or say anything about it, as who you are friends with is completely your choice. Be with the people who make you feel happy, good and safe.

Finally, to all of my wonderful friends who will probably be reading this in the due course, thank you all and I love you guys :)

From me xx